I really don't want to get up at 5:30 tomorrow...

Alienation and Humility

I also wish people wouldn't bash other people (especially if their in our band). I will do my best to keep certain peoples unnamed.

We need to do our best to encourage as much as we can. Many make mistakes, and many you just want to squeeze their brains out. But, most of the time, you don't know their story. One of our band members was ridiculed and humiliated so much the other day, I wish that I could have been there, because I would not have been able to tolerate what was happening to said person. I swear (from now on said people will be referred to as "person") that "person" was about to cry. How can someone be so insensitive to people? It doesn't make any sense.

Next, us as a band need to watch out for each other. Certain "person" (different one this time) is not seen as one most of us would want to hang out with. But, when you get around person and finally get to truly understand person, you can see that person can actually be quite fun to be around. The sad thing is that person does not feel wanted by the band at all and I barely convinced person to stay in band this year. I hope I can convince person to stay in band next year. Also, I found out to one of my underlying fears, person has resorted to cutting oneself now. What's really sad is that when person was talking to me about it today, person was laughing! Laughing!! How can one feel so dejected that one would openly talk about hurting oneself and laugh about it. Person only wants to feel accepted in the band. Who knows what would happen to person if person quit band.

These people will continue to remain unnamed for their sake and everybody elses. God knows only how much these people need more rumors going around about them. My message to you is this fellow band members, be nice to one another, encourage one another, help each other even if you can't stand to be around them; because who knows when one day they'll be gone, and you will never get them back...ever.

Yay!

Yay TAKS! Yay crazy teachers! Yay sleepless nights! Yay band/school politics! Yay 100 degree weather!

Well, the end is coming...for school that is. Everybody is going lunatic and the school is utter chaos. Summer is here way too soon, and I still don't have my summer clothes or a permit that I was supposed to get in December. My family's gone crazy to the point where I seem to be the only sane one. Or I'm just so far off my rocker that the world has taken on a whole new perspective. It's time for school to be over. Everybody hates each other and sick of being around each other and we all just need some down time. But, all end-of-school-years are like that and I am glad I'm not in the Junior High. That's what I call optimism, it's not much, but it's the best that I can do right now. But remember...

It's fine! We went to state!

Feelings of Terminality

Well, everything's done and I have nothing better to do than post something. OAP's over and us aspiring actors don't know what to do with ourselves. It's so weird to have free time. I don't have to read anymore "classic's", so I checked out something real for once. The six weeks are nearly over, so the teachers aren't giving much homework. My lips and wrists are sore from practicing. So what do I do? I listen to Chuck Mangione and post a blog...I've got to get a life.

When a musician's gotta go, a musician's gotta go